Baby Hailey, leaving deep footprints,while soaring with angel wings

In my journey as a special needs parent, I have lived many joyful moments, I have cried many tears, and I have emphasized with many, for this journey is one of many emotions and experiences. But in this journey, I have also experienced pain that does not influence my own life, but those of other. … More Baby Hailey, leaving deep footprints,while soaring with angel wings

When a special needs parent’s heart is screaming a million words, IN SILENCE

So often and frequently friendships get lost. So often and frequently people get forgotten simply because they aren’t heard or seen. In my case, the ones who connect with me on a unique level, knows my silence is actually me screaming words. Words unsaid by the vocal organ, but spoken by the heart. A heart … More When a special needs parent’s heart is screaming a million words, IN SILENCE

Thankful. Being nominated for the Sunshine Blog Award

This morning as I woke up my phone surprised me with a message from Sneh Asnani from Bangalore India, congratulating me on my nomination for the Sunshine Blogger Award. This was not only a huge surprise, but as also an extreme awakement of gratitude humbleness in my heart. For my ability to write is purely … More Thankful. Being nominated for the Sunshine Blog Award

Letter to society.

Today our brain injured son had a victory. Today was meant to be celebrated. Today our son did one of the biggest things ever. Today someone broke that biggest thing. Our once withdrawn, non-verbal child, took a developmental leap, and went to sit next to a mother waiting for her child. Offering his unconditional friendship, … More Letter to society.

Brain Child Fund, keeping special needs families under it’s wings

Being a special needs parent often means that you travel alone on a journey that very few is able to fully unnderstand. Being a special needs parent often means that your road of life is dark, full of cracks, and unbearable to walk on. Yet you have to face the cracked road, the mountains in … More Brain Child Fund, keeping special needs families under it’s wings

Humbly accepting a nomination for the blog appreciation award.

Through the chaos of my daily life, the unimaginable happened. Something so big, so extreme, that I had moments of doubt, checking my email over and over, making sure the email was meant for Me! Words a very wise man once said, came true…. I got nominated for my very first blog award. Words like … More Humbly accepting a nomination for the blog appreciation award.

NOT just a mom!

How often do we feel inadequate to the expectations of society, how often do we feel inferior to human kind. While other is making huge progress in life, many of us is trying to stumble past the daily deeds of being a mom. Just a mom…. Being a special needs mom awakens even more thoughts … More NOT just a mom!

Healing blessings

Our autistic child had one of the worst weekends ever. Despite of the fact that he is on an amazing therapy program, he still gets days where the symptoms of his brain injury flairs up to it’s utmost worst. Days where you as parent just HIDE, days where you feel you give your all to … More Healing blessings

How Insangu Products changed our lives, and how it can change YOURS.

During the journey of life one comes to areas in life where it feels like one hits a road block. An unexpected happening, an ordeal one is not prepared to face. A road block like this can leave one feeling helpless, hopeless, alone. Sometimes a roadblock can feel like it is the end of life’s … More How Insangu Products changed our lives, and how it can change YOURS.

Power of the hand

Many say the tongue is the most powerful organ that can do either the most constructive, OR the most DEstructive of deeds. Looking back at my life, looking back at a year, I prefer to disagree with this statement. In fact, I like to think of the HANDS as the MOST powerful organ. Understated, yet … More Power of the hand

Dear new special needs parent, THIS is what awaits….

When asked if the special needs journey will ever get better, if life will EVER get easier, there is no easy way to explain a journey you haven’t asked for, haven’t prepared for…. It hits you in a time of your life where your dreams are the biggest, your morality the highest, and it drags … More Dear new special needs parent, THIS is what awaits….

Dear Santa Clause, if you bring guns, mama WILL shoot!

And so a new journey begins. Our autistic boy suddenly gave up his obsession with farm toys, and he entered the world of TOY guns. Not only guns. But sharp shooting foam missiles that burns the flesh of your bones once it hits. AND, if THAT is NOT ENOUGH, our boy’s new found obsession includes … More Dear Santa Clause, if you bring guns, mama WILL shoot!

“My name is…… and I am a special needs parent, I can’t afford boundaries”

As a special needs parent one has very little boundaries. In fact, one can’t really afford boundaries. This is something a dear friend and fellow special needs mom, Lorna Jenkins has taught me. : ” I am a special needs parent, I can’t afford boundaries.” Because those boundaries may just keep my child from experiences … More “My name is…… and I am a special needs parent, I can’t afford boundaries”

In honor of Smanga who found the greatest home, with the greatest love…..

Suddenly, it is quiet, your child’s voice not to be heard, suddenly, you are alone, You call, no one awnsers, you look, you don’t see. You find yourself ALONE your child no where in sight. As you walk through bushes, over rocks, into the deeps, looking for your autistic, non verbal child, you realise, the … More In honor of Smanga who found the greatest home, with the greatest love…..

Silent battles of a special needs parent

End of school quarter, and social media is buzzing with proud parents showing of their children’s well achieved report cards. Parents glowing with pride, people lashing out comments of amazement, the attention drawn onto the child who got good marks, who progressed well. The world is the child’s oyster who sucseeds in school, who does … More Silent battles of a special needs parent

Pondering about black biscuits and fudge forests, seeing reason in everything….

Siiting in my living room, contemplating about years gone by, contemplating about a new year I just started. Devouring the last pieces of black Forrest, and biscuit fudge cake, thinking, observing life. Realising the strange coincidence the morsels on my plate has….. Both had a unique part in my life. Both made memories. Memories that … More Pondering about black biscuits and fudge forests, seeing reason in everything….

The condemned flower

If you ask me to draw a flower, this is what you will see in a few moments in time. Psychology says those scribbles you doodle while on the phone for instance, reveals a lot more about your personality than you think. If you had to dissect my flower, you most probally would think that … More The condemned flower

Honoring the life’s and deeds of special needs parents everywhere.

Being a special needs parent is difficult. Taking on a journey to give your special needs child a better quality of life is even more difficult. It is one thing to have a child who is in need of help. It is a complete other thing to get that help. A journey of getting help … More Honoring the life’s and deeds of special needs parents everywhere.

Unveiling the deep dark secret behind Raising my autistic farmer

Please note that the following content might be disturbing and is not suitable for sensitive readers. Reader’s discretion advised. And NO you can’t go bother authorities with complaints. Because the author of this disturbing documents is unavailable, scrubbing floors of the looney bin. By now, my loyal readers will know quite al lot about the … More Unveiling the deep dark secret behind Raising my autistic farmer

Silent battles

Your soul tired, your body weak, your emotions overflowing, your heart yearning for a life that could have been, yet, know one knows this. You triumphantly hide behind a charade of super woman the ultimate mom. No one noticing,or maybe even bothering to look deep enough to see your battles. As parents, and I think … More Silent battles

Being instruments in God’s hand. Honoring the instrument that started Raising My Autistic farmer.

My previous post honoured the man behind Raising My Autistic Farmer. Today is a very special day of remembrance, and I am blessed to be able to give recognition to the man who started Raising My Autistic Farmer, the brain child behind this blog. The instrument of our Father, the man who has been sent … More Being instruments in God’s hand. Honoring the instrument that started Raising My Autistic farmer.

Giving honor to the man behind raising my autistic farmer.

I am not really someone to celebrate cliché, money making days like in example father’s day. Because each day should be a a day to celebrate a special person in one’s life. But, since the whole social media realm is being overwhelmed by father’s day anythings. I thought there would be no better way or … More Giving honor to the man behind raising my autistic farmer.

To every parent, It’s okay, to be NOT okay.

We live in a world where achievement and appearance is everything. We live in a world where social media is sparkling full of happy, perfect faces, where everything is good, where every mom is the super mom,where everyone’s social life is that of a celebrity. Picture perfect photo’s, high achievements, social gatherings, and spotless clean … More To every parent, It’s okay, to be NOT okay.

Behind the scenes of Arms of Mercy. Changing the world one bracelet at a time

When one’s child is born, one is most of the time able to provide for the child you are given. Although sometimes you don’t have heaps of everything, you know you have, to give what your child needs. It is every parent’s privilege to provide for our children to their every need. Them being completely … More Behind the scenes of Arms of Mercy. Changing the world one bracelet at a time

Words in honour of Liam, Ori, and every child who got their wings.

Growing up as a child we often visited my Grandmother’s grave in a cemetery in Johannesburg. Not only was this an experience to go and get tactile closure of the passing of an amazing woman whom I only knew about 8 years of my life. But it was also an experience of coming to terms … More Words in honour of Liam, Ori, and every child who got their wings.

What a special needs mom REALLY wants for Mother’s day.

Mothersday. A day, ONE day which mothers get recognised. An opportunity for anyone selling anything to make a few extra rand. An opportunity for every marketer to test their skills. A day where even the smallest child is motivated to go ask dad,or even MOM HERSELF for money to go buy or make mom something. … More What a special needs mom REALLY wants for Mother’s day.

In remembrance of Katlego. The Angel with no voice.

Kissing my Autistic child goodnight on his forehead, after praying with him for our Heavenly Father to keep him safe, to protect and to hold him,switching the light off, looking at my son for one last second before I leave the room, not knowing what tommorow, or even perhaps the evening will bring. Thankfull for … More In remembrance of Katlego. The Angel with no voice.

Autism uncensored

Many, many times in my life I hear the question “what is Autism?”. Many times I get told they don’t understand our life’s. Many times I get asked to explain. As much as I try to post facts on Facebook. As much as I try to educated people briefly, one just can’t explain Autism. Reading … More Autism uncensored

Autism explained. How it effects our world.

Autism. The biggest mountain our family EVER had to overcome. It is a different-abilty which comes in all shapes and sizes. No child on the autism spectrum is exactly the same. Symptoms differ from child to child. Yes, we call our children DIFFERENT-ABLED Not DIS-ABLED. Our children are different, but NOT less. They are often … More Autism explained. How it effects our world.

Dare to inspire….

Alone, far away from familiar people or acquaintances, tucked away in the Klein Karoo, surrounded by bushes and a mountain staring at us, alone. Fighting a battle so very few understand. So very few know of. It is so easy to pretend. To hide. To isolate….. To be ALONE. We thought battles very few on … More Dare to inspire….

Why????

Sometimes life throws curve balls we aren’t able to catch. Sometimes we can’t help asking why we are getting the circumstances we are. Sometimes we look at other people and we can’t help to wish, to wonder WHY? WHY US. For years I have been asking myself the unavoidable question WHY. Our lives is a … More Why????

Grace….

As a special needs parent one of the biggest challenges is to keep standing while in the mids of a storm. To smile when you feel like crying a waterfall, to keep on fighting, when you are basically busy breaking. To find strength, time after time, to get up after falling. This is challenges us … More Grace….

Trading darkness for light…Our story…

°Pregnancy. One of the most beautiful times of any woman’s life. Birth, bringing one’s new born into one’s home. One of the most beautiful events in any family’s life. A fairy tale most woman dream of. We experienced it all. Except instead of living the fairy scenario, we encountered mountains. Instead of living the conventional … More Trading darkness for light…Our story…

Finding hope

 Today I want to do something I interactive. If you ever experienced South-Africa’s load shedding, then this would be an rather easy task for you. I want you to read, and then close your eyes and then IMAGINE. *It is pitch dark,it is hot and humid,you can’t see anything at all. You hear your child … More Finding hope